It is hard to believe that 6 years ago today, Jackson was stillborn. In some ways it feels like yesterday, and in other ways it feels like that awful day was eons ago. Not a day goes by that I don't think about him & who he would have been. One thing is for sure though. I know that he would have been an amazing son & wonderful brother to our girls. And one thing that gives me hope, is that I know one day we will reunite & see each other again.
While we were in Las Vegas, we went to the cemetery to see him & put some Christmas decorations up that my in-laws had gotten for him. The girls went with us & we talked to them about Jackson. This is the second time we have gone with the girls to the cemetery. I'm not sure the girls exactly 'get' the entire situation & who Jackson really is, but Kennedy did say on the way there that Jackson is her big brother. So maybe she does understand. Either way, I want to continue to talk to the girls about Jackson & make sure they know who he is & what he means to our family.
The girls helped us put up the trees, lights & ornaments. They enjoyed picking out what color ornaments they wanted for the tree & the exact placement of them. Mommy may, or may not have, rearranged them a bit so they weren't all clumped together in the middle of the tree.
Jackson Edward--we cannot believe that you have been gone for 6 years. Not a day goes by that we don't think of you & miss you. We will never understand why God chose to take you from us so early, but we have to trust that you are not hurting any more & are in a better place. And we know that one day we will be with you again. We love you.
Love,
Daddy & Mommy
I can't believe it was 6 years ago either! I miss you Jackson Edward and love as though you have always been around! Your cousins still ask for you. You are in my prayers often and so are your mommy and daddy! I will love you forever! Love, Auntie Lisa
ReplyDeleteJ, I am all choked up reading this as I also remember that day and the phone call from Marc like it was yesterday. My thoughts adn prayers are with you all as you journey together as a family remembering sweet Jackson who stole ALL of our hearts! Sending big hugs and love to you all.
ReplyDeleteHi Jessica, this is Sariah from your Scentsy team. I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you all. I had no idea of your loss, and I am so sorry. I hope that Jackson is dancing in Heaven with my Sophia and that they are watching over us and cheering us on. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteI didn't know that you had lost a son. I am so sorry for your loss. It is such a blessing to your girls that you both talk openly to them about it and he can still remain a part of their lives. ::Sending prayers your way::
ReplyDeleteI love you. I'm so sorry for your pain. I'm sorry that 6 yrs ago I couldn't have been more supportive to you - as you know, our nightmare had just begun, 8 weeks earlier. It pains me to see pictures of you & the kids at the cemetery. I still do not like going to Emily's grave. Never will. I just want you to know that I understand and that I share in your hope, knowing that there's a day coming when we'll be reunited with our angels, and we will NEVER have to say goodbye again!! I can't wait for that day!! Love you Cuz <3
ReplyDelete... And I know that Emily Grace welcomed Jackson into Heaven, and they've been playing with one another ever since! ;)
ReplyDeleteI didn't know you lost a son. Words cannot express my sadness and it is hard just to understand the "why" like yoi said. Praying for you guys!!
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